October 24, 2008

I don't know how to start this post, so I'm just going to jump right in.

I had a miscarriage. I was 12 weeks on Tuesday, but the baby stopped developing long before that. At my 10 week Dr's appt they couldn't find a heartbeat. Neither of us were too worried about it but as time went on I knew something was wrong. My Dr thought I was more like 8 weeks after doing an exam. And an ultrasound yesterday showed that I am miscarrying.

This one is happening completely different from my first miscarriage (4 years ago). The Dr doesn't think I'll need a D&C though, which I am very thankful for. (and actually I didn't need one with my first miscarriage either. Again, thankful)

I don't know how to say the rest of this without sounding rude and heartless, but I want to say it because it will help me.
Please don't let out a deep sigh, cock your head to the side and tell me how sorry you are. It makes my blood boil. I don't need or want pitty. I understand that in times like this people feel the need to say something and often don't know what to say. It's ok. I don't need you to say anything. Honestly I don't want to talk about it. Roger and I talk about it and that is enough for me. I want to heal (both physically and emotionally) and move forward.

Really, I don't mean to sound rude. Just letting you know how I feel about it.

Thanks for being excited with us over this pregnancy. We were excited too. And although this pregnancy was a surprise, we will be trying again when the time is right. Joseph won't have it any other way. :)

1 comment:

Jen said...

Just wanted to break the no comments barrier on this post by saying that you don't sound rude and what you're saying about pity makes sense. And that's all I have to say.